I shouldn't have

These roads don't feel the same. The people have started to look different. I haven't even moved an inch but everything feels so different. Every corner I turn, reminds of the smile I used to wear on my face. Other people's happiness haunts my days. I don't think I can make it through in this town.

It's been days since he left. I haven't left the house. The day we split up was the saddest ever. I couldn't even find it in me to cry. "It's not you, it's me." Bullshit! Why do people always say that? Of course something is wrong. If you don't want to be with me, say it to my face. Maybe this was for the best.

My friends keep asking me how I feel. They are worried about me. They wished they could be by my side and comfort me. 

I can't wait to have friends. I only had one person around me at a time. Large crowds are not my cup of tea. But now he is all gone. I should have ignored him like I wanted to. He nagged me and showed up wherever I was as. He was persistent and I hated it. He showed interested and determination. I fell for that. I gave in. I shouldn't have.

It really is true that some people enter your life just to leave lessons. They are just part of the journey you are supposed to take. You both don't know but that's not the main point. The lesson is a that matters. 

What's the point of crying over spilled milk? I don't have time and energy to waste on what's not meant for me. I learnt the lesson and now it's time to focus on what matters.