Letters To My Crushes: Letter 1

 

 

Dear crush, 

I write this letter to you informing you that I once had a crush on you. I remember those beautiful days when I did my best to ignore you when you in the vicinity but daydreamed about a lot of occasions with you. I will be honest not all the occasions were filled with happiness. 

On my ideal guy check list you don't fit age and height preferences. But I will say, your ego fills the empty spaces. But why did my brain release dopamine and my heart flutter when your name was mentioned or when you were around? My friends played a part though. 

I never thought how much a smile or rather the arrangement of one's teeth would flutter the heart of one soul. Thank you for the revelation. Now, I look at strangers' lips trying to find my prince Charming. 

'I once had a crush on you'. It's a bygone now but you will be part of my memories no matter how much I will try to remove you. It is quite hard to forget how someone made you feel. This heart of mine had never once thought of love but you made it feel it. I was scared of what I could become if I let my feelings take control of me. I was not ready for a relationship not like you were. 

I will be honest, the sound of your voice when you are near still makes my heart flutter even though the magnitude has reduced. Even in my dreams you do have some effect on me. Unfortunately, our names were not written in the same book of destiny, fate might have been afraid of a sequel of Romeo and Juliet. 

I hope you live your life well and find a heart that makes yours flutter, mine was just confused. 

Sincerely,

A.