Letters To My Crushes: Letter 4

Dear crush,

Hello. How are you? How have you been doing? How is your day? I've asked you these questions way too many times. Did you ever get tired of those questions? I am sorry I am too boring. 

Skin as bright as the sun, beautiful than I imagined. With hands softer than these rocks I carry. I admire your free spirited-ness and I glance at you way too much. I've been trying to keep these eyes away from yours. I will admit, it is not easy. With a skin that shines, my eyes can't be that rebellious. Beauty is meant to be admired.

We are friends and all but I still wonder about those glances. We caught each other but I was influenced by you. I blame it on the school system. I am not really protesting. But I wonder if it was a coincidence cause sometimes I just can't tell. The questions that run in my mind are driving me crazy. If you too have questions, ask. 

My heart should be broken. I really can't tell why I feel this way for you. I am still indecisive but I am not insensitive. The jealousy that grows when you're vibing with another girl confuses me sometimes. I just hope this confusion ends before I sink too deep. Or maybe make up your mind and do something about it.

Sincerely,

A.